A not so simple demand

 Years went by

Avoiding 

My heart 

I feared 

It’s demand

Careers are hard to build

Family and friendship too

Were not easy to keep

My heart too

Didn’t complain much

But blocked my access 

To beauty

To love

To joy 

To spontaneity 

To sensitivity 

Finally

I relented 

To my surprise 

It demanded some idle time

In balcony alone

With a glass of cool drink

Listening to the birds

The instructions was clear

Take up the problems of the work later

Soon my body rested 

And was feeling sleepy

And my heart said

Now just smile and 

go to sleep

As I walk

As I walk 

Everything around

Beautiful and bright and warm

my heart not so 

Plagued by fear

Robbed by confusion

And I keep walking 

With a small ray of hope

Of  living a life

Intensely 

Peacefully 

But the mischievous seductress 

Would not let it be 

Easy

The glimpses were enough

For the heart to 

Pass ages in 

Waiting

Hoping

Struggling 

And then it arrived

And brought with it

A cold wind

And a desert around 

And I walk

In the desert 

With a smile around