Does this answer your question ?

 It is the spring time

The pollen season

I got a sneezing nose

And my jaws were paining 

I got my own room and nobody would distract me

My mind was totally absorbed in the pain

Lying there

Being aware of my face,neck, breathing 

All the noise of life has fallen away

Mind stayed absorbed naturally for a long time in the pain

Such effortless meditative state is tough to achieve

Where mind gets naturally absorbed at one thing

A smile was there on my face

Tulika was working on her laptop nearby

And as she was about to get out of the room, she asked why are you smiling ?

I was in too much pain to answer anything 

I stayed silent, my smile was still there,

For abnormally long time

“Why are you acting weird?”, she said

Well

Well

Well

Dramebaaz

It’s ridiculous 

That you have come now

For my grief 

Go away

Have I gone mad ?

Protecting my grief 

Grief

Have I fallen in love with my grief?

You can say so, after all I have spent so much time with it

Isn’t there anything else to do ?

As if I chose it 

How dare you that you ask for my joy now ?

I can die a thousand times for every moment of bliss I lived

Those memories still bring a smile 

They still bring hope 

Yes, you heard it right

You might not get anything

Why you ask ?

As if I choose it